I get picked on at work a lot because I have a crush on one of my best friends.

I get told, “Just tell him.” “You’re missing out on something great.” “He likes you back, you just can’t see it.”

But what people don’t get is, he DOESN’T feel that way about me. Which is why I’ve been trying to keep it hidden for the last, you know, SIX YEARS.

He hung out at my work for 2 hours because he’s an odd ball and that’s how we hang out. We do nothing. We sit in cars and talk for hours. Its just our thing.

I’m gross and he’s gorgeous.  That’s an entire reason for him not to love me in the first place. Yes, I realize it’s shallow, but it’s the way things are. I’m a friggin’ whale and he weighs about 170lbs.

He can’t date me, I can’t date him. The situation is too complicated to explain.

I would never ask him to sacrifice everything he would have to, just to be with me, if it were even a possibility. I couldn’t take all that from a person.

But I’m so tired of getting teased for it. Sure it was fun for a minute. But it hurts. It really does. I mean, I get it. You’re trying to push me toward a happier future. But it won’t end well. I can see this crashing and burning in so many ways.

Just drop it. Drop it and leave it there forever. If I have time to forget about those feelings and focus on our friendship, I’ll get over it. I have before.